The invisible leprechaun midgets that keeps teasing me! : an observation on fibromyalgia

If you have anything, or ever have had chronic painful encounter on a daily basis then you may have some empathy for persons in the throes of a fibromyalgia attack,and to compound issues with bone density issues relating to 6 compacted and three bulging discs and throw in a good measure of rheumatoid arthritis exclamations....now we're having just pain fun!
#legalize -it's Sirius
For all of my wizened bodies comma and those who earn their way away from it, because I understand, I salute you. For those who understand exactly if you've ever had that feeling where there's a little invisible midget who runs around hazing you in many and various parts of your body repeatedly, then you understand the pain of those of us who suffer from fibromyalgia.   Please know, that truth of it is so frustrating it causes a type of PTSD to any pain possibilities. That's the real upset, especially for active people who enjoys life and wants to play tennis, running around with the kids, go on a hike, but almost always the tased and dazed beneficiary of all that back chronic pain, enjoyed with the arthritis, and Bones cracking and Joint wearing down all over make you feel like a robot in need of repair shopping! When ill, we know what happens when your body is declared 15 years older than you are, fun starts sounding like  taking a nap and the scrap yard sucks because replacement parts are rare and morally questionable!
Under no circumstances is this a tale of Woe Is Me... I think there is more to the idea that is invested in the insecurity of not knowing when this pain will surprise and arrive, sans the fun!
There's never a fair enough warning that you won't look like you're literally being tased at a dinner dinner-table and for your party of 1 and I imagine it as a crazy scissor happy midget leprechaun under the table having the time of his life.... shock value notwithstanding, you probably got a couple of onlookers for the viewing pleasure!
The best you can hope for in that situation it seems, is just write out the shock waves of pain, while attempting to look as if you are not in the throes of a  meltdown when your seizing and shaking uncontrollably, photo of giving part of your body. But it's completely understandable because it's kind of hard to stay dignified in appearance... while being tased repeatedly! Yes, over time we find a way to make it work, he stayed home more often, and we find ways to save all public appearances when say your cycle is on! Because those would be really embarrassing especially when you're issues are of a feminine nature. Oh here they come again! again the trauma of being seized by pain and then we'll see being in pain while in aw of the myriads of possible embarrassment!
Then the double double-whammy is even worse when after all of that people will assume so many other things about your behavior, may make up their own reasons what you are, and how you are 👎 drama, and even worse you must be drinking or on something! Pain in itself is a trigger for pain from the point of pain itself, they have no idea. Then you might not understand it either, you have fibromyalgia, all of your nerve endings are overwrought and constantly on edge any little thing can be a trigger for series of the leprechaun midget and his minions shocking the hell out of you,  over and  over and over again!
Some people respond in Anger, others respond in what was miasms and yet others just lay down and give up. I'm not one of those... I want to be one who recreate my body physically and spiritually recalibrate who I am this is who I am, and who I want to become through my metaphysical in solar capacities!
I believe modern medicine has a purpose and a place, and there is used for all of the things we find are helpful in our healing. But if you can find a way to either route, juicing st. John's wart with cascara Sagrada, white willow bark , and even one of my favorite horsetail, you will find that there are remedies all around you... You can grow them in your garden or in your kitchen window like me.
I'm working on healing and I am gonna get that little invisible tazing bastard, and wring his neck until the painstakings stop! LOL I hope you find your money if you need it. Seek peace in yourself and find your way inside, reside there in and even with pain you will find peace of mind.
Shalom. Salaam . Namaste. Hello. Good morrow.
Do More Good!